Writing Meditation....

I started a 'writing meditation' a couple of weeks ago using pen and paper. Today, I will use the computer.
Write for ten minutes they say. Push the pen without stopping they say. Turn off your inner censor they say, etc., etc. Yea. Easier said than done. Don't edit along the way. Well, that's fine if you're using a pen or pencil. Doing it on the computer makes it harder for me. Why do I think that I have to edit myself whether on the computer or writing with the pen. On the computer it's actually easier (I know, I contradicted myself) to do, especially when I misspell, or rather miss type a word which is frequent. I can quickly backspace and retype it. I should use the pen and that won't be so much of a problem.
Why do I have this type of perfectionism when I'm on the computer, or pen and paper for that matter. I seem to be that way only in certain areas or specific tasks such as folding the towels at the salon. I like them folded in a certain way, all turned in the same direction and reasonably neat. I have trouble with the writing thing since I assume that eventually someone might read what I wrote and I assume might be critical of me. How silly, of course. But I can't seem to turn off my internal censor. I have this trouble when I write for the blog. I don't always say what I think, especially if it's the least bit controversial. Controversial that is to a certain group of people. I fear that I will not be able to back up what I say with a clear defense (should I be asked to do so) and would look silly for even saying it.
I am getting better at it lately though. I am caring less what others may think and I am becoming more confident in my understanding of what it is I actually believe about things. It's just that I have done such a complete reversal of my former ideas about so many things like faith, religion and politics. In other words, according to some, I've become increasingly 'liberal' minded on these topics.
I hate labels like that. Ken Wilbur defines them as boundaries. To name a thing is to make it separate from other things, this verses that, which he also likens to the original sin.
Actually an interesting subject in its own right. More on this later....